I would love to tell you exactly why and how and who it involves, but I can't.
I would also love to tell you that there is some certainty for me and the chaplaincy now, but there isn't. I could still loose my job in June, and I have bills to pay in July and no means of doing that.
Or there could be a chaplaincy next year with someone else doing the job.
I made a promise to the students and to everyone else that I would stay no matter what, but if there is no chaplaincy or there is someone else doing my job then staying seems pointless and indeed in the case of someone else in post it would be counter productive. One thing I am certain of is that if I am not paid I will not be allowed to stay.
So today I applied for another job in Derby Diocese. It does not feel good. It feels like I am giving up. I'm not, in fact quite the opposite, I still passionately believe that God has called me here. I still passionately believe that God is not done with this chaplaincy.
But what else do I do?